Adrienne Rich’s predicament (and strength) mirrors your own…
I am bombarded yet I stand.
I have been standing all my life in the direct path of a battery of signals the most accurately transmitted most untranslatable language in the universe… “Planetarium” —Adrienne Rich
Analysis of the radio tracking data from the Pioneer 10 and 11 spacecraft at distances between 20–70 AU from the Sun has consistently indicated the presence of a small but anomalous Doppler frequency drift. The drift can be interpreted as due to a constant acceleration of (8.74 ± 1.33) × 10−10 m/s2 directed towards the Sun. Although it is suspected that there is a systematic origin to the effect, none has been found. As a result, there is growing interest in the nature of this anomaly. [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pioneer_10]